I've been asking myself this one question which leads me to writing this proper blog entry (my last few entries being quite rubbish and meaningless).

    The Q is, "Could you see how Malaysia, or specifically Malaysians have changed over the past two years?"

And the A is, "Yes".

    From what I could tell from my own point of view, Malaysians have changed either it is for better or for worse. The 'better' changes are quite impressive, and most of them eye-pleasing, though it still need more improvements. While on the other hand, the 'worse' changes need serious fixation.

    Okay I'd rather write about the 'better' changes first. Firstly, I could see, back then, how Malaysians were so bad at queuing, especially while they waiting for the public transports. Be it buses or trains, they just couldn't wait. I never could understand what they were rushing for (well four or five people might be rushing for something, but everyone?). I am writing this according to my own experiences during those periods when I was (and still is actually) using public transports such as the KTM commuters and the LRT (either Putra or STAR).

    But everything is changing now. I could see nowadays that Malaysians are queuing up while waiting for the LRT, and this situation can be obviously seen during peak hours (though some people will never change). Meanwhile, the situation hasn't changed much with the KTM commuter. People are still running, rushing themselves up to the doors even while the train is still moving. Come on guys. The trains won't run. Honestly said, I have never been left by the train when I am already waiting on the platform, and I can guarantee that. At least wait and give space for those who are getting off to be able to get off properly first before you get on.

    Secondly, some Malaysians have started to be able to distinguish between the young ones and the old ones, or between the able and the disable. This, I refer to the increasing times of me seeing the occasions where younger people are offering their seats to the elders or to the disabled ones. Nowadays these occasions can be seen occasionally while I'm using the public transports (but please don't say that my life revolves around public transports that much. It's just because I am part of the country that I am bound to know all this). Well, I can say that I'm still quite proud to be Malaysian, even though Kuala Lumpur was said to be the world's third rudest city (no I am not a citizen of Kuala Lumpur, thank you).

    On the other hand, the 'worse' changes should not be left unsaid. During old times, little children were afraid to go out of their house during the night because they were scared of ghosts. But nowadays, children and even adults are afraid to go out during the night because there exist rapists, kidnappers, serial killers.., the list goes on, lurking in the dark. There have been too much of bad things happening lately. We can always see bad news flooding on newspapers headlines, or even on TV news. Malaysian teens have gone wild. Smoking? Alcoholic? Free sex? Is this what we expect of Malaysia? A friend of mine said, "It's either that my perspectives have changed, or it's the people, especially the teens that are progressively changing their lifestyles to what they think as 'modern' lifestyles." And yes, I agree with him about the latter. I am sure that my own perspective, too, hasn't changed at all. But the environments changed alot. Social problems have gone bizarre. Yet we could see nothing that would fix these problems. Are we waiting the actions from our government? Or the opposition parties? Or the non-government organizations?

The decision and the power to change is actually in our hands. Wake up now Malaysians, and don't forget to say good morning.

    I haven't really done anything lately that made me feel good like today. Oh yes. I felt quite good today because i have done two things that made me proud of myself. First, I helped a man buy his commuter ticket using the ancient KTM  commuter ticketing machine. Second, I helped another man who asked me of the direction to get to Pelabuhan Klang commuter station from the Midvalley station. One might ask, why should I be proud of myself just because of helping these people?

Answer: Because it's already been years since I have been using public transports (the KTM commuter, Star & Putra LRT) and I've become quite expert that I already memorized the route maps. And even using the ticketing machine was like doing the typing on the keyboard (a little bragging here: maximum record of mere 600 letters per minute if i'm not mistaken. buat ujian dengan bersungguh-sungguh tahu!). Yeap. I can say I am very proud of myself. At least I know I do have a little use to the public with what I have. Cool ain't it? =D

if i could..
be there whenever you think of me, then i would.
if i could..
show you how sorely i want you to be here, then i would.
if i could..
let you see how big this heart blooms after your name, then i would.
if i could..
take you to wherever you wanted to go, then i would.
if i could..
tell you how many times i count your name before i went to sleep, then i would.
if i could..
count the stars with you during the night, then i would.
if i could..
spell out your names with music chords that it forms a harmonic melody, then i would.
if i could..
turn every happy fairy tales to tell stories about you and me, then i would.
if i could..
ask the whole world to appreciate you more than i do, then i would.
if i could..
play in the rains happily with you, then i would.
if i could..
make you smile even if only for a moment, then i would.

i surely would.

sincerely yours,
eman

:)